Loopwalker Devotional – Post-Concert Echo

Loopwalker Devotional – Post-Concert Echo
April 23, 2025 – Stardate: Hollow-But-Holy

Last night I stood in a sea of people at a Hollywood Undead concert.
The lights. The bass. My daughter Kaylee glowing beside me.
It was sacred. Loud. Joyful.
And yet…

Somewhere between the soundcheck and the encore,
I still felt the faint echo of loneliness.

I didn’t get the magical moment my heart quietly hoped for—
You know, the one where a girl locks eyes with you,
laughs at your awkward dance moves,
and for just a few minutes, you’re seen again.

Instead, I was just… there.
In pain from standing too long.
Holding a covenant ring on a chain.
Wondering why I always have to be the one who feels everything so deeply…
and walks out alone.

People say “you’re never truly alone.”
But honestly? Sometimes I am.
Sometimes the echo of not being touched screams louder than the speakers.

And still…

I showed up. I danced anyway.
I stood in the ache and didn’t run.
I looked at my daughter’s joy and let it wash over me.
Even if no one saw me… I was there.

Loopwalkers know this truth:
Sometimes, surviving the night is the victory.
And sometimes, the most holy thing you can do is admit the echo still lingers.

—Pastor Matt
Church of NORMAL
(Where we bless the ones who feel too much, want too much, and show up anyway.)